Re: I've lost count of how many times I have restarted....
Posted: Fri Dec 28, 2018 11:00 pm
Thanks Lindsey. I hope you are having a wonderful holiday break with your little ones.
Here is what I ate today:
Breakfast: I actually ate this at 1 am, so for all intents and purposes - yesterday. I’m playing a little game with myself by shifting it into today’s food, just to feel a bit better. It was a delicious mung bean sweet dessert. My lovely MIL had been trying to tempt me off plan all night - she just wanted me to try some of her cooking because we hadn’t seen each other in awhile, and that is what she feels most proud of. It can be very wearing to keep gracefully declining and thankfully my sister-in-law took up my cause and would practically swoop in and defend and deflect. But, I could tell things weren’t copacetic so I needed to find some way to show my MIL some appreciation for her efforts, and nothing says I love you better to a cook than asking for seconds. Hence 2 bowls of dessert.
Lunch: Paid a visit to old neighbours/friends and they were kind enough to have a big old steamed russet waiting for me. Food really can feel like love....super sweet of them to remember.
Dinner: We had Christmas dinner at my parent’s place tonight. My sister and mom pulled out all of the stops and created an MWL feast for me to enjoy. I had so many great things to eat, and eat I did! It was neat to notice that there was very little non-mwl food choices at the dinner table, so everyone ate well. Sadly, the dessert smorgasbord was a teetering McDougaller’s nightmare. There must have been ...well...who cares what was there, it was like stumbling upon the witch’s cottage in the story Hansel and Gretel. I did well, but clean up was terribly tempting. l couldn’t bring myself to throw that stuff away, even though it will continue to tempt me all night, sitting alone out on the counter like that....singing little songs and pleading with me to come and visit...LOL... I only wish I were joking here...okay I am a little bit.
All of this eating into the pain to avoid letting in hyper-palatable foods may have unintended consequences (not just limited to weight gain due to extra calories). But I am interested in seeing if I can avoid a major blow-out binge of crap by just staying full enough when I have less control of my environment than usual.
Sorry, I’m feeling a little extra talkative tonight. I’m a tiny bit sad that my family isn’t following the program at this point in time. I know it’s not my business and everyone gets to make up their own mind (run their own cost/benefit analysis), but I had somehow hoped I could get us to be that rare family who does this together, just through sheer force of will on my part. I’m not giving up on them, but I will need to up my game and be an even better example. Maybe they just need to see me actually reach my goal to give this another really good shot.
XO Good night
Here is what I ate today:
Breakfast: I actually ate this at 1 am, so for all intents and purposes - yesterday. I’m playing a little game with myself by shifting it into today’s food, just to feel a bit better. It was a delicious mung bean sweet dessert. My lovely MIL had been trying to tempt me off plan all night - she just wanted me to try some of her cooking because we hadn’t seen each other in awhile, and that is what she feels most proud of. It can be very wearing to keep gracefully declining and thankfully my sister-in-law took up my cause and would practically swoop in and defend and deflect. But, I could tell things weren’t copacetic so I needed to find some way to show my MIL some appreciation for her efforts, and nothing says I love you better to a cook than asking for seconds. Hence 2 bowls of dessert.
Lunch: Paid a visit to old neighbours/friends and they were kind enough to have a big old steamed russet waiting for me. Food really can feel like love....super sweet of them to remember.
Dinner: We had Christmas dinner at my parent’s place tonight. My sister and mom pulled out all of the stops and created an MWL feast for me to enjoy. I had so many great things to eat, and eat I did! It was neat to notice that there was very little non-mwl food choices at the dinner table, so everyone ate well. Sadly, the dessert smorgasbord was a teetering McDougaller’s nightmare. There must have been ...well...who cares what was there, it was like stumbling upon the witch’s cottage in the story Hansel and Gretel. I did well, but clean up was terribly tempting. l couldn’t bring myself to throw that stuff away, even though it will continue to tempt me all night, sitting alone out on the counter like that....singing little songs and pleading with me to come and visit...LOL... I only wish I were joking here...okay I am a little bit.
All of this eating into the pain to avoid letting in hyper-palatable foods may have unintended consequences (not just limited to weight gain due to extra calories). But I am interested in seeing if I can avoid a major blow-out binge of crap by just staying full enough when I have less control of my environment than usual.
Sorry, I’m feeling a little extra talkative tonight. I’m a tiny bit sad that my family isn’t following the program at this point in time. I know it’s not my business and everyone gets to make up their own mind (run their own cost/benefit analysis), but I had somehow hoped I could get us to be that rare family who does this together, just through sheer force of will on my part. I’m not giving up on them, but I will need to up my game and be an even better example. Maybe they just need to see me actually reach my goal to give this another really good shot.
XO Good night