by JohnLarson » Thu Dec 05, 2013 10:23 am
I have not been posting and that normally means I have not been on plan.
I just get to the point where I don't want to be different. I want to be able to eat whatever. I am discovering that denial is very powerful.
I am not real sure how bad things need to get before I really evaluate my relationship with food. Right now my jeans are fitting tight and I went out this past weekend to get larger dress pants. They are size 36, which is still much better than 42, but still not that good. In all reality, my 34 should be too big.
I am trying to think when was the last time I strung 10 solid 100% days together and it has been a while. Heck, I am not even sure when I strung 3 solid days together before this week. I have my daughters birthday party Friday and a Christmas party Saturday. Last year at these events I ate SAD. The pizza at my daughters birthday gave me head acne and was not very good. The Christmas party food was very bland and not enjoyable. I have no desire to eat pizza, even without cheese, which is odd. I do want some birthday cake, but know that it just starts a bad chain of events. Same at the office party, there will be all sorts of good deserts there.
The thing is that if I had been doing good the last three months, then sure these two events eating SAD would be some what tolerable. The fact is that I have been eating way too much oil and refined flours, plus a little meat here and there. I have even had some cheese when I get honest about it.
What is really sad is that I weigh more than I did a year ago. How in the world did that happen? I was doing so good. I never reached my goal, but I did get under 200 and I guess that was good enough.
I know that Dr M says 90% gets you 90% results, but I am not sure if I know how to count. I am guessing that my 90% is more like 60%. I do not want to be at 60% towards my health goals, I do not want to settle for 90%. I want to be healthy and fit. So, I need to be 100%. I really see no reason why I can't be close to 100%. I like the food and I know that this WOE makes sense.
So will I be posting more? I am not sure. I hope to, but I don't think I will be posting every day.
My Current JournalMy First JournalThe McDougall Program is not a "diet," and it was not designed primarily for weight loss – however, loss of excess body fat naturally results as people regain their health. - Dr. John McDougall