I have not posted on here for quite a while and I certainly have not been keeping up with any sort of journal. I have barely even been on Facebook. Here is what I recently posted on Facebook -
"Weight sure comes on easier than it goes off. My SAD Easter weekend has me back to a different belt hole. I also decided to weigh myself this morning. I knew I was messing up and have been on the edge for a few weeks. I have been in the "not quite 100%" or "almost 100%" mindset for a little over a month.
I don't like being in "diet" mode, but I also don't like being fat. I am back to weighing in, logging meals, and journaling.
I also started today with telling my co-worker that I share an office with, "No more donuts". She replied, "I have been trying to stop you."
Until a few weeks ago, I had stayed clear of the donuts here at work, but I had been doing so good...
I am still doing good. My dress pants fit just fine. I am still in my 34" Levi 501's. I could probably use that last belt hole if I really wanted to. I have lost my focus and have gotten way too loose with my eating. I have to get honest with this type of behavior, in the past I have caused much harm "falling off the wagon". I also know for me, posting about this type of thinking helps me stay on plan."
The last time I was on the scale was March 1st, I was 218.8. I didn't get on the scale after that, even though I was going to weigh myself April 1st. I think I knew then I hadn't been progressing like I should be, even though I was able to fit into some old clothes. My weight has shifted away from my legs, but in my gut. These past six weeks I have not been following this WOE 100%, not even close to 100%, I will trick myself into thinking I am doing good and somehow have deserved to eat SAD. I didn't do too much damage, but I certainly have been going the wrong way. This Easter weekend was full of SAD eating. Yesterday, I got back on plan. This mornings weigh in was 226.5. I am not happy with that, but it could have easily been over 230.
I cooked up a batch of Spicy Brown Rice (with some white rice also), I have plenty of frozen vegetables and salad makings. I have plenty of potatoes. My wife is also cutting back on snack food, so no chips are in the house. I might make some TopChips, but I really like Air Frying French fries. I like eating this way. I just like eating, period.
I am going on vacation May 17th, for two weeks, and will be seeing friends and family. I will be eating with many different people in many different situations. I will be making some choices. I also know that there will be some situations where I will have small servings of SAD, especially at my Grandmothers and my Moms. I will also be going out to eat. I really need to take advantage of these next few weeks to be 100% on MWL and avoid all SAD items, which is really non-food. For me to be strong on the road and social situations, I need to be strong at home and while eating alone.
I hope I don't forget how I feel right now. Lots of prayers yesterday and today.